“Changing the world starts from a change within.”
Holidays vs. mental health
This time of year is the worst for those who deal with any sort of mental health issue. Yes, the “most joyful" time of the year is actually the worst for some of us. If you're new, my name is Jillian and I battle depression and anxiety.
Your heart won’t stop coming after me
11 years ago when I was just 19 years old, I was at my very lowest in my anxiety and depression. So low that I attempted suicide. In my darkness I thought I would make everyone else's lives better by leaving this earth. I felt worthless as I took handfuls of pills of many kinds. In the midst of my total darkness I got a phone call from a friend.
Meet me in my pain
Let's be real. When struggling with anxiety and depression, it isn't always full blown. Yes, some short or long periods of time it is. In those times of pain, people don't really know how to react.
Feeling completely stuck
Have you ever been out hiking before and end up walking straight into a pile of thick mud? You know that feeling of trying to get out of it but you're just completely stuck?
The darkness of depression
Coming from someone who struggles with depression, we don't really open up about the things we think or feel. It's tough to be honest with others, because the thoughts that circle around in our heads can be pretty dark. I have even been torn on whether to post this and share my journey this much with the world, so why am I deciding to be open about it now?

Life as a Mom with Depression
When I was diagnosed with depression at 18, or when I attempted suicide at 19, I never imagined I could become a mother! At least not while living with this mental illness. I mean, you would think those two don’t go hand in hand. A mom is involved. A mom is loving. A mom gives her all. But what happens when you are unable to be involved, unable to be loving, and unable to give your all?